![]() To you, it's so many incidents of unfair treatment that permanently scar your psyche. Parents repress all those times they punished you unfairly, because they can't or won't believe that they could ever be so cruel to their child. The worst thing about this? Siblings eventually forget about all those times they were cruel to you, because they're kids and they didn't see how much or how often they hurt you. And of course, my parents would side with their little angels against the black sheep, so more often it was me against my entire family. Heck, as we got older, they would actually sometimes plant evidence against me, and it would end up my testimony against theirs. My faults were pointed out swiftly and in front of my siblings, while theirs at least warranted private conversation out of earshot.Īnd, since kids can often be extremely cruel to each other, my siblings quickly learned to take advantage of the unfair treatment I would get, and went out of their way to get me blamed for stuff they did. ![]() Somebody broke a dish? How dare I do that? Somebody left the toilet clogged? Go to my room without dinner! Never mind that I was nowhere near the dishes or that someone else used the toilet after me.Ĭriticism against me were also quite harsher than those against my siblings. But they (especially my mother) were quick to lay the blame - and the punishments - on me. Oh, don't get me wrong, my parents weren't abusive. Maybe the first years were tough, but I wouldn't change the outcome for my older or younger siblings' outcomes.Īs a middle child, you get blamed for almost everything. I don't know if I have become this super confident person or whether it is just a crutch I use to stand up against the world.Īs a 70 year old, I have always known about mcs, and have always been challenged as an adult by it. But the point is, I have been acting like someone I'm not for so long that I don't even know who I am anymore. I asked my best friend if she thought I was shy, and she said "No! You are like the farthest thing from it!" I then proceeded to tell her that this was all a facade and that I am like so shy. I am still super shy and have low self esteem, and feel awkward but I never show it. I made sure to project myself as super confident and smart and stuff even though on the inside I don't feel like that at all. So I lost a lot of the weight and I made sure to have an overly flamboyant and flashy attitude. I was fat, I didn't really talk with many people outside my closest friends I only had like 2 or 3.īut then, I realized how much more attention my older sister got, and how much more love was shown to my younger brother and I realized that in order for me to be seen or at least recognized and noticed by my parents and friends and family, I would have to completely change. I mean, like my personality did a whole 180 degree flip! Before I purposely changed my attitude, I was sort of an awkward kid. ![]() I don’t know if I have MCS, but I do know that being the middle child has caused me to change my whole personality.
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